Sweet melissa....

 is anyone doing powderpuff football? i dont want to be the only one, but im still gonna do it anyway 
jw.....

 Hey yall, not this list thing isnt fun XD but im getting frustrated, so im gonna just put the names with them anyway. i was gonna title this post 'you deserve the truth', because i love you guys all so much and im just grateful to have u as friends, so i thoguht it would be the least that i could do is to be straightforward. ( im not knocking the 'secretive' method, since you guys have said stuff that you probably feel should be secretive yet thrown out there for its own good). but  the truth  sounded so dramatic and revelaing :b, and luckily i dont have anyhting to say thats remotely like that, atleast today. XD
here we go,

Danielle: yer osm, and u keep the fun going, and we're not that close in respect to talking nite and day about bands, gossips, and stuff like that, but youre stil one of my best friends and i love it when we're hanging together :) its obvi that we share the same sense of humor, cuz south park is my fave show, and its rare for me to find someone that appreciates a good/crude/very offensive laugh like me.<3u

Sara: lol, yer one of my fave persons to be around. i feel like i can say anyhting to you, or ask u anything, and you wouldnt judge me, or expect bad intentions(evn if they were there,haha) or what not. I adore and emulate yer sense of individuality and confidence. Sometimes I think you should say what you think more often, even if its contrary to others and/or civility. luv ya!

KTJ: i dont think you know how much u mean to me, and its mostly my fault. I can be a reeeeeeeaaally blunt, jerky, obnoxious and an over asshole with you, and i think its just cuz your sooo nice and encouraging towards me, with all of your undeserved praise that you give me, that i mite take advantage of it unintentionally, which will in the end hurt me the worst when you realize how much better than me you really are. For example: when i wanna say to you, "katie, yer soo small minded, who cares about that stuff ?!" what i really mean is "katie, you're soo much better than that, they dont deserve your time and thoughts." So yea, i love you bunches, and i hope you know that.

Cat: What can i say, ya got moxy. We relate alot intellectually, evn tho thats probably an insult for you XD i love talking with you about alot of stuff thats bigger than ourselves, and you always share with me things that i would nevr have thoguht of, or have been too ignorant to see. I'd feel intrusive if i tried to talk with you about yer personal dealings and such, because i think you've given me enough respect and +, for me to let u do what u think is best. but i think you've got it covered anyway :D <3 u

Catie: Yer sooooooooo funnny! I cnat describe how much fun i have listening to you, and yer feet, no matter how scary you both can be, lol. I treasure our frindship that has been going on for quite some time now, unfortunatley i cnat say since the 90's but it would have been cool. alteast i can say i SAW u in the 90's, haha. I hope u nevr change, and that maybe we can become evn better friends, cuz  i honestly dont know much about you besides yer sense of humor, and taste in men. there shouldnt be much more to go tho, XD luv ya!

Jess: you're one of my bestes friends, and as much as i hate school, it brought me to you, and evryone else for that matter. I love it whenever we hang out and what not, even tho a little too much of eachohter tends to show my bad/annoying side, and u arent afraid to tell me XD. Somewhere inside of you, i think theres a lot of feelings, and you're pretty good at hiding the deep ones. I love that u speak yer mind about some stuff, but i cant think of a time when you've actually let go of any true pain or emotions about things, or atleast not to me. I reealy value our friendship, and hope that i lasts as long as it can. <3 u

Brian : yea, ive known u like a little less than  year, and it seems ive told u more than ive told my friends who ive known longer, and (no offense) but are more attached to XD idk what it is, but yer a great listener, and i guess its easier to talk with you cuz i dont know u that well enough to know how u'd respond to stuff, and u just seem like ud put every judgement and/or preconception out of yer head and just listen to me.thanx 4 that. and when it comes to a good laugh, i know yer the man to provide the pic and caption to get the job done, lol. luv ya!

Roisleeen: we go waaaaaaayyy back, and it seems that i havent gone a singles year since like first grade without associating wiht you somehow, and for most of those times we were bffls. in honest, you've chnaged a lot, particularly in your interests, so we've grown apart, as it does happen, but i still know i can always count on you to talk to. i can ALWAYS show up out of the blue with a question or comment or salutation that sometimes has nothing to do with anyhting, but i dont care, and i dont think u do either. truth be told, sometimes ill just make up something stupid to make u laugh, just so i can have an excuse to talk to you/ waste yer time, cuz i know yer usually preoccupied with band stuff or watevr and wouldnt have any reason to talk to me otherwise. i miss ya kid, but still <3 u

Nicole: 'tis been awhile since we've hung out, from what i hear yer hibernating(?) lol, sounds comfy, but i miss you! we've nevr gotten all that close, and at first u were just the girl who smiles and and listens. we kind of share that trait at times, but i would prolly crack first due to a FANTASTIC pun that i would just have to share XD as u prolly noticed, aboit 95% of the things that come out of my mouth are based on something that i find funny, and thats just kind of who i am. yer one of those people that i feel i can talk to w/o joking around when the time's rite, however yer also one of the people that i share almost nothing in common interest-wise, so its usualy the only way i can actualy communicate with you. idk, maybe thts just the way its supposed to be, a bit of each XD all i know is yer a great friend, and thats all ic an ask for. luv ya!

i think that's evryone who's friends with me on lj, so im pretty much done.
btw, at the end of each one, i said either <3 u or luv ya, and it was randomly done by going back and forth after each one (besides ktj's, cuz something else fit better to what i was saying), b/ci love u all and wouldnt wnat things like that to be ovranalyzed falsely.

Srry bout the extreme run-ons and such, too  

well, for my first post, i think ill explain my username :) 
 many things crossed my mind, things that i thought would represent myself and still be easy to remember, since i decided to sign up for this thing on a whim and might forget about it by tomorrow, and yet i came up with, nothing. so! lurking above my computer was a set of refernce books, including a thesaurus, dictionary, and a dictionary/thesaurus. my plan was to open up to a random page, peruse the words on the two open pages, and then choose the one i deemed 'the coolest'.  pantomime is the actual word i chose, and i added an 'L', to make mel :D
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